26March2005

"Your shadow ain't the only shady part.. biitch." -Your conversations with other people about your instagations on my behalf is making you lose your respect from other people. You seemin' pretty shady. Just know one thing you beezy.. Everything that you say about me; they're judging you. Trust that..

"Ain't no need for namin' names.. My true niggas you know who you are." -My best beezy in the entire world; Chrissy, came through on wednesday. She came durin' lunch and it was crackin' at schoo' cause there was a DJ in the caff. Then Chrissy came through with me to my 5th period.. Shit was hee-fuckinlarry-uss. My spanish teacher is a complete dumbass; no lie. "There's two Rosemary's? Which one is the real one?" Haha shit was funny. Mm.. Then i walked her ass to Kayla's 6th period. Then after schoo' i called up Noni to come swoop us up to go to frisko. Too bad Dee couldn't come through. Had another R and C day cudddy. Then we stopped by Noni's house to wait for one'a his beezies. While we were waitin' Chrissy and i were gettin' ready in a bathroom that doesn't work! Ahaha. Fuuuck.. "SHUT THE TOILET MAAANG!" That was soo funny. Then we were bein' hellla nosey so we looked through the medicine cabinet. Ahah, daaamnn he has victoria secret spray! Le'me use this right quiiick! I misss her so much! Ahaha FUCK! Mm.. Then his beezy came through and we left say around 4? Yuup. Thenn, on our way to the sko.. Chrissy was playin' this stupid ass game with me? Fuck i'ono what it was.. Ahaha. You had to pinch eachother when you see a yellow car/bus, UPS truck, or a beetle. Annnd if you know me.. I'm pretty slow.. Ahahaha. Daaamnit.. Chrissy got me like 105874938570295 times before i even knew how to play! So i cheated. Ahaha. Then we was hella tryna look for the streets and exits.. Daaamn.. This is the reason i don't EVER wanna drive in the sko. Ahaha.. Then we actually found Patrick's house! Yeess`m. But on our way there.. I saw someone on the corner and i thought it was like a man whore or something.. Haha.. But it was GeeGee! Hahaha! Wooops. Thenn yeahh.. Noni dropped us off and him and his lil' beezy went somewhere. So we both said hii to Gee.. But of course Chrissy was straight mackin' on him from the start.. Ewww. Get a room; forreal. I'm not kiidding. Ahaha. Then Gee was like why don't you say hi to Patrick, Rose? He's in the garage.. So go! Haha.. Daamnn ain't gotta push me to go see him so y'all can have your privacy.. It's not like i wanted to see that shit anyway! Ahaha. Then i went to the garage and no one was there.. So Gee was moded. Then yeahh Patrick came down stairs and he's bald now! Oh myy gooodness. Ahaha.. "Hmm you smell like shampoo." Heeeyy patrick thanks for teaching me! Ahaha.. Within 4 hours i got itt!! Yeeees. Proud of me aren't you! Hahaha.. Maaann i love it. And yeah i know i get hella concentrated but it's fun as fuck!! Jeeebus. Within the first hour.. I got mixin' down.. So i just need practice.. And the other 3 hours i was just fuckin' around mixin'! Boooy how much fun was that! Ahahaah.. Then Patrick was all like.. Explainin' to me how to Juggle or what not! I'm like.. Uhhh.. Yeah i'll wait a couple weeks to learn that one! Ahaha. Then Gee was like DJ ROSEY ROSE! I'm like.. Eww no that's hella ugly! Ahaha. Daaamn. Patrick and I both wish we were rich enough to buy me some turntables! Ohh yess.. New shit to do when i'm bored. Now i'm startin' to session everywhere and everyone's house who has turntables! Ahaha.. Yeees. I got my first two records (Thanks to Matt.) Mhmm.. Then yeah.. All'a sudden my day went baaad! Don't wanna get into detail about that.. May i just say.. WHAT PEOPLE SAY IRRITATE THE FUCK OUT'A ME. Anndd.. I have been venting to my whore; Mio. Ahhh i love you whore! Ahaha.. Daamnit.. We relate very much so in every which way! God. But you asshole made me cry.. "Oh my god; i'm tearing." Ahaha.. Daamnn. Hella comforting to talk to you about it though.. And just stare at the ceiling.. Talk about heartaches and shit.. Like a couple'a gay ass people! Thenn.. I got two dates for sadie-hawkins.. But don't even trip.. They're my kuyas! Kuya Gabe and Kuya RC. Yeees.. But anyways.. I think i'm on my way to gettin' those packs back! And so is Kuya Gabe.. We still need to run some more though.. Ahaha..
 Mmm.. DJing is my fetish. =)

014March2005

dis re spected: Having lack of respect, esteem, or courteous regard.

That's exactly how i feel. Daaamn.. I get it now kuya mark. Type'a shit. The irony of it maang. Lost total respect for folks today.. Can't see 'em the same ever again.. How stupid is 'em folks though! Swear i would never find out about that type'a shit.. How can they say.. Whas'up to me and act like everything is all koo' and shit when it ain't.. Faaakkeee. Daaamnn it's heller funny too cause me and my kuya mark had been talkin' about that type'a situation!! "I mean how stupid do they take me? Thinkin' i would never notice or find out." Psssh.. Some folks just straight up underestimate.. Whatever i ain't even trippin'.. Ya'll folks ain't nothin' but that talkk.. Annd that's a damnn shame.. I down pity you. Too bad so sad.

Thenn.. Today.. Gabe and i was workin' on abs during weight training.. I was tellin' his ass how to do 'em crunches right and tuck his tummy tight annnd... AHAH! Kay.. Then i did it with him to show him how to do it.. Then yep we did medicine ball routines.. Then we were like.. Maann tryna get all lookin' right for the summer ya' dig?! Yeees. I get it. Since i was plannin' to run after school or what not.. I called him up and shit i was like maaang.. You up for runnin'? And he was like NAH? Of course i am! Haha, yous a fooool. He made me run to his house.. Annd i saw Geo, Itak, Kristine, RC, and Tim. Yees. Thenn Geo was all like.. You guys are going running? Yeeep we are. Haha.. Then Gabe and i ran all the way to Refugio park and back.. Saw kyle on the way.. Started talkin' about helller shit. "Quit texting your boyfriend and run!" Haha mann. Then I hear about.. Steve-Oh. (Free Steve-Oh!!) Maann.. All bad.. Ahah.. Yeeaah Gabe.. That's heller healthy that you smoked right before we ran.. Fuckin' idiot! Haha.. "Fuuuckk off!!" Mmk.. You're my runnin' buddy now.. Haha.. All Gabe's idea.. "So we're gonna push eachother in the weight room.. and we're gonna run tomorrow and the next day.. and the next day after thatt.." Alllright.. All this for summer. Hahah shiiit.. (Yeess gettin' the packs bacckk biitches!) And I gotta go swimsuit shoppin' with Ate Sherrylyn & Jenna.. Fooorrreal.. Bout'a be hot! Haha.. "Wait till you see myy..."

013March2005

So yesterday.. Went to church with the rentals & lil' bro. Did the liturgy of the word shit again for the kids.. Aww mann they're helller cute.. Maann I want one. Hahaha, fuuckk just kiidding. Shit maybe heller later in life. Get my shit settled first. Then hmm.. Shit was heller funny during church. Fuckin' Kayla! Stupid beezy.. "Yeaah she would move up there for a better view." Helller funny.. And i was standin' next to Mio he was messin' with my hair oh my goodness.. What's your problem.. Do not touch! Psshh.. Why you always talkin' shit huh!! What chu gon' do about it Mio! "I'll step on you!" Oh yeaah? Well it gon' end up like that david and goliath shit! Ahaha, that was heller stupid gay. Then after church or what not.. I was kickin' it with 'em folks. Mhmm.. I saw Abe (my boyfriend.. Psshh sike!), Roy, Marissa, Jeb, Kathleen, and i met Giano & his girlfriend (forgot her name, wooops.) Thenn everyone left. Haha.. Shit was funny kinda? Then yeep. Mike, Kayla, Cherilyn, and I.. Went to safeway? Yuup. Kayla and i bought.. Sobe and Fuze.. Hellllaa good ass juice. Swearr!! Haha. (; Mmk.. Thenn.. We all went back for Confirmation.. And i wasn't really paying attention.. Always texting. Then shit got a lil' frustrating / irritating. But fuck the bullshit! Mhmm.. Then during that i was just tryna relax.. Cause i wasn't really tryna be alll "BOO GRR!" in church. Then Mio was just tryna conversate with me.. But i heller neglected him.. I'm soo sorry!! "Stop texting.. You're not even paying attention to what i'm saying!" Mmk.. Thenn what happened? Mio was just playing with my hair or what not.. Pinching my fatt!! What's wrong with you! Then yayy i saw Boo aka Valerie. I said "hiiii! =D" Then Mio and I, both had to go take pictures for a lil' confirmation banner thing.. So we went outside.. Then Mike and George was like COUPLE PICTURE? Then Mio was all like "yeah let's take a couple picture" and slammed me against the door! OUCH! Then Mio was all tryna make me laugh when they were takin' the picture.. He was talkin' about my fatt!! Because i was makin' fun of him cause he had helller dark ass eyebags.. So i was like; You got bags! "Pssh you have bags! *points to my stomach. No no wait.. Those aren't bags.. They're rolls!" AWWW!! Heller offensive.. That's why when they took the picture your light asss disappeared! Buahah`. Mmk then after that.. We walked in helller laughing for no reason! Haha.. Fuckin' Jeb kept slappin' the side of my head when he walked past me. Asshole! Just kiidding! Thenn.. It was over. Then i was saying bye to everyone.. And i was saying bye to Mio he was like "where you going?" I'm leaving.. "Where's your ride?" Over there!! "Oh okay i'll walk you to the car." Haha.. Stupid okay if you want to? Then he said hi to my momm.. And mommy offered him a ride home. I was like nah ma` he lives in antioch! "You forgot already where i live!? I live in Lafayette!" Okay whatever byee! Haha.. Kayy then went home.. Tried caallling everyone i called that day. So mad / sad. Grrr.. Whatever thank goodness this day is OVERRRR.

011March2005

I swearr.. Folks these days.. Just shutup. I'm muthafuckin' happy can't you tell!? No drama whatsoever, no arguing, bringin' that A game on my report card, luva loooove kickin' it with the niggys, some hooottt ass weather, annnd him! Boooyy, this spring/summer bout'a be on&movin'!! Riiight riight. Exsposure cousin, exposure. "Wait till you see my.." Yadadda, Jenna?! Yeees. I heller love it maaan. Wakin' up every fuckin' morning.. Swear i just feel like i'm on the brady bunch and shit actin' like 'em crazy white people. Haha.. I'm feelin' the weather.. Ooh boooy. Gotta work on my body thoughh.. Boooo. Coach is kickin' my ass in the weight room, forreal. Gotta get to grindin' on that workout routine.. Gotta get my ass runnin' again or sprintin'! Jeeess. Hmm what i gotta work on tonin' is.. Myyy... biceps, triceps, thighs, calves, annd flabs. And all that other shit in between. That meeans more squats and shit.. MAAAN! Oh and that flexibility thing too. AHAH.. Freakin' shmackin' aayyyee.. Oh and Roldan you lil' ass shit talkin' man. I fuckin' hate you; you whore! Jeees. Why don't you decide to keep all 'em smart ass comments to yo'self and let me be happy instead of fillin' my damn head with doubts and shit. Swear sometimes.. Happy people who are surrounded by miserable ass folks isn't goood. Cause misery loves company, ya' dig? I love school.. But then y'know you just get 'em days where you don't wanna get up outta bed just to go! Haha.. Fuck.. Cause i do.. Helller times. Mhmm.. "Drop it like it's hot; tell Rick Rock how you want it gruhh`." Haha, daamnit got it stuck in my head.. Especially when i see my best niggy Ricc Rocc; yadadda?! Two fingers; two fingers!! Haha, inside joke. Y'all just don't know!! What's your size? Penny, nickel, dime, or quarter size? Hahaha.. Jeebus. Hee-fuckinglarry-uss. We be hatin' 'em cocky ass fuckers.. Both of 'em.. Literally cocky. Ricc you be feelin' my shirt though!! Huhhh.. "That's cute." Psshh, you're just jealous you don't have one maang! Annd some funny ass shit happened today? Durin' spanish.. I was choppin' it up with Michelle annd she asked me if i loved him? I was like wtf type'a question! Bee kooooo'.. We're just friends.. And nah not with a benefit; fuckin' Michelle! Hahah, stupid gruhh`. Well since i was feelin' all motivated or what not.. Me and cousin and the folks decided to go swimmin' for two hours.. Y'know try to do laps. Haha, but just ended up fuckin' around.. Tryna dive and shiiit. Ohh man. Hee-fuckinlarry-uss. Talkin' about the first time i went to the gym.. What does this work out? What's this for? Why's it called that?! Hahah, fucckkk good times rollin' cuddy. Annd me and Kuya Mark have gotten closer than we already are! Fuck i swear i heller love you kuya! Haha dammnit. I'm your favoritest little cousin ever! Cause i make you laugh... But daaammnn why does it seem like i keep hearin' an echo of a certain thing someone said! "Think before you do." Jeees.. But whatever! I'm prolly gonna hit up the gym tonight or what not with the ex-bestfriend, my niggy jar the king of the klondike bar.. Haha fuckin' pretty ass nigga you swear he was gaayy as fuck! Just kiiiddiing. I don't know what i'm gonna do tomorrow. I know i got heller parties to hit up.. Especially with this beautiful ass weather! Umm.. Prolly gon' hit up ol' dee's steez, then mae's.. And then byron's! Haha, heelll yeees. Summerr lovin'.. "Wait till you see myy..." =D

Whaaat.. Forreal?
******: u is really try`na stay faithful to this nigga, huh?
S0LE passion: Yeees. that's how i am.
******: Y?
S0LE passion: i'll do whatever i feel like, GOSH!
I'm proud of myself. *Buahah`.

Today was soo boooring. Guess what.. I'm one'a Jebbeezy's HEROES. -Fuckin' FINALLY. Took his ass forever. Buahah`. I'm jk. I love you saap! Soo, i couldn't sleep last night.. Cause ahem. (Cannot mention it.) Bought 2 calling cards.. Haven't used 'em yet. -I fuckin' wonder why! Jeeees. Buncha loud noises for him! But knowin' myself; i'd call him before i go to escuela tomorrow. I followed some instructions of jeb's. HA. Just spent the whole day not talkin' to him; and just sat down and thought.. a lot. Interesting.. Mom's was gonna buy me another calling card.. HA, damnit. Then my daddy was like.. Who's your friend in the Philippines? Um yeah so i told my daddy the truth. Then he was like Who? Then blah blah blah.. Askin' me who he is, and if he was my boyfriend or what not. I was like he's not my boyfriend! Thenn, he was like.. SORT OF then? I was like hell nah; we're JUST friends. Then daddy said.. Why are you blushing! I was like i'm not blushing! He was like bring him over. I'm like uhh how about NO! Haha. Aww; daddy's actually warming up to my niggas, now.  Interesting.. Haha. Mommy was like yeeaah bring him over so we can both meet him. I'm like.. NO NO NO NO NO!! ALL BAD! That was a scandalous move, mom. I love 'em though.. Daaamn. I miss him, a lot. Like forreal. Two thumbs booo! It's interesting.. That we haven't been talkin' much. I know he's gettin' heller mad and shit spendin' heller money just to calll me. -Wooops. "I just need time to see.." Yeees. -I'm holding back nothing.